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Only after disaster can we be resurrected…

“Only after disaster can we be resurrected.”

That’s a great quote from a fabulous book/movie. It’s my sig on a couple of forums and I feel like I should be wearing a tee-shirt with it printed on the front lately. I feel I’m at the proverbial rock-bottom of life. I’m struggling to sleep and to wake, to work and to play, to laugh and to cry… Nothing feels good or right and I need someone to pick me up and hold me.

I just prayed for the first time in a long time. My hands are trembling and I finally cried.

It has to be uphill from here right?

Time on my hands

This weekend was a perfect example of why I try to keep myself immersed in work. Time on my hands means far too much time to think; too much time to think makes me:

  • angry
  • bitter
  • lonely
  • sad

I don’t want to be nice to people. I don’t want to help anyone out. I just want someone to take care of me.