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Wanted: A Schedule. ASAP.

I am a Capricorn through and through. Which means I’m a little on the obsessive side. I need structure. And organization. And things to be in order. Including my time. I know it doesn’t make me seem like the most fun person in the world, but it helps me keep my sanity.

However, lately I have been totally off my schedule. I’ve been keeping weird hours and the insomia hasn’t helped either. So I just feel completely out of it. So I put this here, in writing, for all the world and my blogging buddies to see. I will figure out a more reasonable schedule for myself. I will work at least six hours sleep in there somewhere. I will make just a little time to do something fun. And I will put forth genuine effort to stick to it.

There. Sounds easy enough, right?

Ugh

I don’t know if I’m depressed because I can’t sleep or I can’t sleep because I’m depressed. But the insomnia has struck again. Hardcore. I lie down at night and I toss and turn at least 14 thousand times. I turn the tv on and I turn it off. I try to read and I put the book down. I watch the sun come up. And I want to scream. And maybe I’m not depressed because that might be just a little too “pop psych” for me. But I’m discontent. And I want to be a mess today. But there’s nobody to clean me up.