I don’t know if I’m depressed because I can’t sleep or I can’t sleep because I’m depressed. But the insomnia has struck again. Hardcore. I lie down at night and I toss and turn at least 14 thousand times. I turn the tv on and I turn it off. I try to read and I put the book down. I watch the sun come up. And I want to scream. And maybe I’m not depressed because that might be just a little too “pop psych” for me. But I’m discontent. And I want to be a mess today. But there’s nobody to clean me up.
damaged calm 
Kim, welcome to my world. I have big time insomnia. I try everything to try and get to sleep. I go to the gym and work my booty off trying to wear myself out. I buy smelly stuff that is supposed to relax you. I spray my pillow. I take pills. If that doesn’t work, I get out of bed and do something for 20 minutes. Nothing works! I have major drama in my life right now and a lot of anxiety about it. Writing definitely helps me feel better, but it ain’t putting me to sleep. Good luck with that…If you find something that works, let me know!
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Have you tried masturbating? It works like a charm.
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Anonymous people have the best ideas!
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For real… except I don’t get the whole anonymous thing. I’d want credit for a clever comeback like that!
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Hi Kim,
I’m Kim too. I haven’t seen you at the meetings, though…
As an aspiring doctor, I was going to suggest masturbation, but some anonymous bastard stole my thunder. How about masturbation and scotch on the rocks?
drkmc
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This is the same guy with the masturbation comment. Maybe because I am a man but I swear it works everytime. I guarantee, this is one thing you wont pick up and put down. We’re not talking about Bridget Jones’s diary. As far as the scotch on the rocks, no thanks. I’ve even tried expensive scotch and it still sucks. Screw, (no pun intended) the alcohol and try what the res of us insomniacs do.
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Yeah, tried the masturbation thing….doesn’t always work out…sometimes it just reminds me that I am so alone I have to masturbate instead of actually having sex. And that leads to more depression and anxiety because now I am afraid no one will ever find me attractive again!! Happy Wednesday!
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